We are officially full-fledged house hunters. Wahoo! We applied for a mortgage early last week, right before the holiday so it’s still being reviewed, but we have been searching the internet for houses! We’ve driven around our local neighborhoods, scouring for “for sale” signs and turning our noses up at quite a few homes that look WAY better online than in person. We’ve seen multiple foreclosures that clearly had pissed off owners; broken windows, spray painted walls, ripped up flooring. -_- Playing the waiting game (AKA obsessively checking my email for notifications!) is difficult for me, the world’s most impatient person, but it’s also a really exciting time! We’ve found a small handful of homes that we are really interested in, sans spray painted, and I can’t wait to start the process of actually touring them!
I’m not 100% that we will be taking the plunge into home ownership; there are a ton of factors that we need to consider first. It’s definitely an awesome time in our lives, though. Just to know that we are capable of taking that HUGE next step is a great feeling. I’ve been watching HGTV a lot more, too. 😉
I have to say that potentially buying a home is a really great way to cut down on senseless spending. You know what I’m talking about. The $15 sweater you don’t need. The $20 movie. The $10 clearance shoes. The chapstick value pack. The this, the that… it’s all unnecessary, random, CRAP. Now that we are waiting on our pre-approval to come through, I feel guilty every time I go to buy something that I don’t “need”. (Other than the $7 Christmas rug I got at Kohl’s on Black Friday. I NEEDED that. Duh!) It’s definitely been padding my bank account.
I’m looking forward to this next chapter of our lives. I really hope we are one step closer to that finished basement, wrap-around porch, fenced in backyard dream that I’ve had for as long as I can remember.
Today is an ordinary day. I woke up, tired still and not quite ready to face the rest of the world. I am going into work later than usual today, so I drink my coffee and watch talk shows. I peruse on Pinterest. I read the news. I am content here on my couch. Soon, I will get ready for work like I do every day; albeit, with a bit more enthusiasm as it is no longer dark outside. I will go to my office and stare at the paperwork mountain on my desk, the motivational quotes on the walls. I will work with youth; we will discuss domestic violence prevention today. We will listen to stories of battered women, scared children, families affected by violence. We will talk about what we can do to curb violence. I will come home and wipe off my kitchen counters. I will throw a load of laundry in. Maybe I will paint. Maybe I will stay up late reading because tomorrow is Friday.
No, there is nothing special about today. I’ve lived this day many days before, in fact. Slight changes, of course, maybe I had tea instead of coffee. Maybe I took kids on a college tour, or listened to someones story of their multiple foster homes. But this day is familiar to me. It is comfortable, even, like a favorite sweater on a chilly day. This day is mine, this life is mine. This is what I have created for myself.
I will love it, all of it, for that reason. This life is my sunshine.
You want the things you’re saying, doing, planning, dreaming about, to matter. You want to believe that there is all some bigger purpose to life than the day to day monotony. Surely life isn’t all 8-5’s, health insurance premiums and pension plans, right? Everything that you do all year; the stress, the extra hours at the office, the anxiety over raises and promotions… is it all for one week of vacation? Is your life a waiting game for that one little slice of time where you allow yourself to “let loose”, to do the things you really want to do, to be truly happy? Not “oh I found this really inspiring quote on Pinterest that I’ll post on my Facebook and subsequently my Instagram (with a selfie)” happy, but legitimately happy. That logic is really hard for me to wrap my head around.
I mean, what is it exactly that we are all trying to do here? I understand the materialistic side of things, I really do. I want the clothes, the car, the house, the level of comfort that having money provides. I also understand hard work, dedication and a sense of responsibility. I subscribe to all of those beliefs and find them to be important qualities for the general population to pride themselves on. BUT… is that what life is? It’s really sad for me to think that my life up until this point has been geared 100% towards obtaining some kind of skill/education that allowed me to begin a career. Now that I have that, the rest of my life is just planning for retirement? I know that we’re supposed to be thankful for the little things. I should be grateful that I’m lying in bed on Sunday night typing away in bed. I have a candle lit (a lovely soy candle called “sunshine” that I bought in Sarasota, Fl. this year on vacation), my tummy is full from dinner and I have a job to go to in the morning. I’m grateful for all of those things; but, can’t I be both grateful and still want for more? Maybe I don’t want for “more” but for “different”. I want spontaneity. I want crafts. I want travel. I want love- the ache in your stomach when they walk in the room kind of love. I want French-pressed coffee with whip cream and I want possibilities. I feel like I can have all of those things if I let go of this traditional way of living that everyone is so convinced they MUST live by.
You can be a cliche and note that you only live once; but I prefer the add-on to that saying. “But if you do it right, once is enough.”
So the question you have to ask yourself is, are you doing it right?
If you feel like a room without a roof! -Happy, Pharrell Williams
Hello! 🙂 This week has been fantastic so far and I’ve been in such a good mood that I’m almost annoying myself. So, sorry pals, you’re just gonna have to deal with me. I really should be cranky since I’m on day FOUR of being a non-smoker, but luckily, I’m still holding strong! I’m not going to lie, today is the first day that I thought man.. it would be really nice to smoke right now.. but instead I popped in a tic-tac (my go to if I’m feeling a craving!) and went on with my day. I’m really determined to make this time my LAST time! I’ve already given nearly 8 years (off and on, but mostly on!) of my life to cigarettes and who knows how much money to tobacco companies… I am done! I have my e-cigarette (which I have not used as a replacement- haven’t touched it thus far) for when I’m feeling weak. I’m not 100% sure about the liquid in e-cigs as I’ve read various studies on them.. but the liquids I have for mine are nicotine-free! I’m sure I’ll be relying on that a little bit while we go on vacation- happy hour, anyone?! I’d rather be puffin’ on water vapor every once and a blue moon than nasty chemicals every single day. 😀
I’ve also stayed committed to my gym plan- I went Monday & today. Monday was some light cardio and leg day and today was arms and shoulders. It’s crazy how much strength I lost in the month that I stopped going. Time to get back to it and this time around, I want to far surpass the effort I put forth last time. Today, I went in without a plan and found myself kind of wandering for a couple minutes. Soo, I decided to document everything I was doing to start developing pre-planned work outs. I realized I’m never going to see the results I want (muscle GAINS!) if I just go in and walk on the elliptical for a few minutes.
Speaking of planning, I need to sit down and commit some time to meal planning so we can 1) eat more consistent, healthier meals and 2) not waste money. Ugh. I haaate grocery shopping.
Anyways! This is not a health/fitness blog, that’s just what happens to be going on in my life right now! I really think that focusing on being healthier is making me happier. Natural endorphins, or something? Who knows.. but I’m not complaining! It could also be that I will be on vacation in 23 days! 🙂 The countdown started a long time ago but now it is SO CLOSE. Kinda like the weekend… now to find something to get into. Is it sad that all I want to do this weekend is drink really good coffee, read a good book, find a flea market, buy some curtains for my living room, take pictures of pretty things and binge watch Law & Order SVU? What are your weekend plans? Leave me a comment!
Happy Hump Day, lovelies.